Starting 2018...

“I need to get my life in order for 2018. I need a retreat! I need a day off to sit down, think clearly and plan ahead…”*sighs*…
With the tide of activities and my mum calling me up and down to do this and to do that in preparation for the Christmas and New Year celebrations (food, food and food), my burden of school work, assignments, my final year project work and my church duties to perform… I must say I felt quite overwhelmed.
Truth be told, I lost track. Days ran into each other and I hadn’t gotten anything major done by the 29th (Dec. 2017). I was in dire need of a day-off for my retreat but it just wasn’t happening.
Then I got in touch with my Aunty Laraba! My lady in shining armor!
She advised me to end my day early and wake up really early (9:00 pm-2:00 am) and get started on my retreat from 2:00 am-5:00 am daily for the next three days.
I started off today (slept from 10:30 pm-3:30 am) from 3:30 am-5:30 am and it was A-M-A-ZING! (although the timing didn’t quite match…I still got…


So... like play like play, 2017 is coming to an end (someone said that October lasted for 0.05 seconds... lol).
All through the year, it’s been from one blessing to another, one problem to another, one day to another, and now we’re finally here counting down 3 days to 2018 and drawing up the resolutions which we hope to follow through the next year.
Truthfully, I never thought that Nigeria would still be peaceful by this time with all we went through this year. From the economic recession to the political dramas to the threats to the Ibos to evacuate the North and the whole clamour for Biafra to the present fuel palaver, we’re still as bustling as ever.
Personally, I thought this year was IT. I’d tell my friend that if I didn’t die this year, I wasn’t going to die again! From nervous breakdowns to times of ‘drought’ (literally), I pulled through safe and sound. I actually found myself even more relevant to the people around me because I knew how it felt to be broken too.
All in all, it’s…

Veggies and Candies

To leave seemed like the best option.
It wasn’t going to be an easy one but I had thought a lot about my dissatisfaction and what I thought was best for me.
I did pause to think about my friends, superiors and those who possibly looked up to me. I knew it was going to be a tough one but then, I mattered most or so I thought.
So, I decided to pray for God to orchestrate things the way I had thought it out, if He also agreed that it was the right thing for me. I felt real good about it too.
After a talk with a close senior friend about my choice, I began to reconsider my actions. Thing is, I decided to look within and I found out that I was actually the one with the problem. I had become stuck up and I just wanted to do my own thing, quite a rebel too.
Also, I got to see that God is even more interested in our growth than we are. If He wants you in or out of anywhere, He’ll make it happen because He works all things for our good. I am the apple of His eyes and He’s not about to care …

A Li'l Bit About Success

At some point during this break when I wanted to surrender because my internship plans failed, my brother suggested I learn web design online. It seemed like a good idea because I planned going into programming. So, I took it upon myself to learn something new; dive into a whole new world of coding.
Well, I'm proud to tell you that I can design a basic (static) website using HTML and some CSS (I'm getting there small small o!).
Although I do feel as though I could’ve done and earned more, I’m not wasting any time on regrets. I’ve started making plans to advance in my career and as a person.
If you want to succeed, you have to define what success means to you. Paint the big picture and start small but never lose sight of the big picture and settle for less. For me, success is becoming more and then giving more. To make an impact in lives...
Ideas are big potentials hidden in the mind. Write them down, work on them, and evolve them. Consciously take out time to think (positively!).

Security 101: Lock The Door

It's really important to keep your doors locked. It's a very simple thing to do that could go a long way in preventing some intruders from getting in.
It's so simple that we may tend to overlook it sometimes or probably forget.
This was an experience I had recently, just this Tuesday actually. It's more of a testimony for me...
It was late Tuesday night and I was home alone. My brothers had gone to church for the leaders' meeting and ought to have been back by 8:30-9pm. I was a bit worried because it was getting late (few minutes past 9pm) and they weren't back. I was in the room and all the lights except for the room and the kitchen light were switched off.
Next thing I knew, someone tried to open the back door without knocking. I assumed it was my brother (we like to use the back door) and I ran for the door to welcome them. But on second thought, I decided to ask 'Who's there?'. There was no response rather I heard footsteps that sounded like so…

Study Time: Songs and Lamentations

I used to think that the book of Lamentations was all sad… I used to think that the book of the Songs of Solomon (Song of Songs) was a no-no…
I’m actually beginning to see the Old Testament from a whole new light. I’ve been doing a study of the Bible for myself –digging deep- because I got tired of having someone tell me ‘WOW-ing stories and stuff’ from the Bible. I wanted to know it for myself… Why else would I have a Bible?!
It’s about God’s love for His people. His plan for our savior Jesus and us… intricately woven into every chapter of the masterpiece ‘stories’ of the Bible; told of in the Old Testament, fulfilled in the New and spilling over through the years into today and forever.
As I read Lamentations from the Message Translation, it felt like pure poetry, pure suffering yet pure life and hope. The book of the Song of Songs actually took me by surprise (I read it all through in one sitting… no breaks!); highlighting the purity and passion of love.
Lamentations isn’t a book quoted…

Unscripted: One Story of Me

Cast your burden upon the LORD and He will sustain you; He will never allow the righteous to be shaken.  (Psalm 55:2)
Cast all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you.  (1 Peter 5:7)
This was a tough time for me and one of my worst episodes so far... I got out of my room, ran to my quiet place to just cry and really get some things off my mind to God. I wanted my life to end at that point cuz I just got out of the exam hall and decided to get some rest when I got a heartbreaking message from home...
Angry with God and everything that existed, I switched off my phone, planned to miss service, go AWOL for a day or so... 
It's a bit painful sharing this though everything is okay now but I feel that this piece may help someone get some burden off their chest. Verily verily, I say unto you, this is the unscripted journal of a once depressed me...